em told me something important about love. love is something that you know its worth your time , your strength and even your tears . you need to feel wanted , to feel loved , most of all , special . words come in handy sometime , but they can be empty promises . i realise , that i have been covering up for your ignorance , my stupidity. the dark , as most of you know is something i have always been afraid of . but yesterday , i feel that is somewhere i needed to be, a place that i know i belong . twice i cried for the same reason only a few knows. i need an intoxication to feel normal again . cause everytime i am alone i am reminded of the same thing again and i cry. i feel stupid for believing every word you say , every time i think it's going to be good , going to happen . its crush at one's hand . and this time its crush at yours . i must have put in too much hope , too much time on it . i forgot about the people who were actually there . em said something that crash my heart too yesterday. and maybe she's right. :/

i am sorry .