there's only one person that i can actually let it all out .
and i never wanted to hurt the others .
i went being the way i am , but i can't put up with all the pretence anymore.
it's sad that one of the closest people i could never trust ,

i never know what i put myself through till now ,
i had to put up with all the facade and everything else .
But now i give up.

It's difficult enough that i have to actually to do all this by myself.

i want to thank a very good friend . you convinced me with all the shit i went through. you gave me the faith to admit something i deny.now , you know the truth . i am flushed to my cheecks and i can never hide anything . thank you , and you identity will be kept for our sake .