which to bury, us or the hatchet?

shanin is directly beside me blogging at the same point of time.

it feels odd now . like what shanin said , the days go off realy fast but then ,
at the same time . you just want it to go and get over done with even faster.

life is sad now , for my social life is zero.a big fat egg .
daddy dearest decided to rob it all away.
for it will somehow help me in more than one way
bullshit .
had the weirdest fight yesterday , on whether should i eat the fried egg or not.
and yet it lead to me running away, smoking , drinkking .

aww comeon . like they said ,
you need to taste a pinch of the salt , the world has to offer .

let me tell you a story ,

me; dad can i get a sic? pink newest album?
dad; show it to me and then i'll consider .
(i came running to him , showing it )
dad; and you getting a disc for all the song about a girl mad at her dad.why do you want it anyway?
me; for the reason that you just have said .

there , how lame can my dad get ? he gave me that fucking face . ergh.oh and also , i almost disowned him yesterday. i cried my heart out lsat week when i told my cousin about me marrying some typical last week. and now , sigh. cousins thinks i am bonkers , out of mind . ):
hah , grandma thinks that dad will slaughter my head off and hang it at the main gate the way those loan sharks do when owner of the house owe them money. hoh! low and behold , people i have a feeling i will die ten years earlier , isn't it true . kicking the habit of smoking is hard.

dad told me about young teens getting caught and he said the last place he wants to see me is at the operation table waiting for him to sign the abortion form .HAH like i would have sex . and he is afraid for everytime i go out of the house , someone calls me saying i am dead . see how can i get a normal mentality if i have parents who thinks that way .